I'm happy to report that I've been doing considerably better since our last prayer session and I have been regaining my sense of identity and confidence in the Lord! The feelings of self-hate have not harassed me since.
"I came in and was almost a little nervous about what was going to transpire. But what He revealed I really did not have that on my mind or my heart. I didn't know the Lord was touching those deep memories and hurts and possible "attachments" until we started to pray and my heart was laid bare. What was helpful for me was that the Lord had been over months, maybe even a couple of years bringing to the top the rejection issues. That was something that was very apparent. He also exposed my fear. But..never linking it all together."
I found my Sozo prayer session to be powerful and cathartic. In the past two years I have experienced a good variety of losses. I have taken the hits on the chin and struggled on, thinking I had left the worst of it behind me. In my prayer session, I became aware that I had been dragging a load of fear, resentment, pain, unforgiveness, anxiety, hopelessness, and fatigue from each of my losses. The session helped me to understand and identify the negative emotions that had taken root in my soul. As I identified emotions and where they resided in and on my body, I could feel their weight as I sat. The manner in which you used imagery showed me how to give my burdens to Jesus for disposal, and accept the light that he offered in exchange. The imagery led me step by step, ever closer to God so that he could develop me.
I found the prayer ministry members to be genuine, as they felt my pain and offered me hope in Jesus. The note taking was particularly helpful because it was a concrete tool that would lead me back to forgiveness and reliance on the Lord.